how the gentrification of portland helped me.

Not a day goes by that someone doesn’t ask me about the gentrification of Portland and how it has affected me and my photography studio. For me personally being pushed out of my old studio was a blessing. Things had gotten old, stale and parts had even become Rotten in the Towne Bldg and I was more than ready to go. Taking the leap though required a push and I got that push just about one year ago. Truth be told I had been looking around for a new place to call home for my studio for about 6 months prior to us all being evicted due to the gentrification of the building and the SE industrial dist.   If I were to make a list of pros and cons about staying in the Towne bldg the cons would have won! On that list of cons you would find: The over sized man-child who rented the space below me for 10+ years and would yell “Shut the F* up” at me and pound on the walls like a two year old having a temper tantrum. He would do this almost everyday and it had gotten really really old to say the least. The homeless, the trash on the street and the smell was overwhelming at times. Not to mention the lack of parking. There are a handful of people that I miss from my time there and there are a handful of people that I do not. The kicker in the end was the rumors that would spread through the building like high school. Actually worse than high school....

creative slump

Day 10 has brought on a creative slump. I can’t stand it here. This is usually where I take a long break. However, I am forcing myself to push through and continue to create everyday this month. So much easier said than...

making time to create without fear

spend a little time in your creative space everyday in february. Often we place so much pressure on ourselves to create something great that we fail to even try. We tie our own hands behind our backs. The trick is to create something everyday or spend time in your creative process everyday. I am totally guilty of doing this. Letting daily life get in the way and not carving out time to spend in my own creativity. Then my life and my art becomes stale and stagnant. This month I am going to spend anywhere from 10min-one hour in my creative space and create something each day in February. Some will be great. Some will be horrible. Some will be light and pretty. Some dark and disturbing. I will learn and grow from it all. I invite you to join me. Make the commitment to yourself. Take the challenge!...
romanticizing the past

romanticizing the past

We are all guilty of it, romanticizing our past. We forget the bad….. hard struggle and only remember the good. We simplify the past and tell ourselves a story that is only a portion of reality. To make matters worse we spit these romanticized partial truths out to other people as advice. For example when someone who has older or grown kids tells you what they did with their own kids and how easy it was. All that does is make the person with the small children feel badly and like they must be doing something wrong because their own reality in the present moment is so much more difficult than the other persons distorted rendition of the truth. I did it to myself the other day. I saw a woman at Costco loading her toddler twins and groceries into her car. I literally thought for a few moments that she was lucky! I thought “oh that was such a wonderful time in my life. I miss the kids being little like that.” WTF! I stopped myself! Had I gone completely insane? That was a wonderful time however it was also the most difficult time in my life. The memory that was playing in my head was leaving out the memory that when I was at Costco with my twins I smelled like spit up, I probably had not showered in 3 days, I had only slept for 2 maybe 3 hours straight, I only had a window of 45 min before I had to get back home feed two babies, change their diapers, put them down for a...